Moving Mountains But Tripping Over Molehills

I am going to move a mountain one day. Someday I will change a city. Through faith like a mustard seed, God will use me to do great things. I know it. I believe it. I have faith in God's ability to use me. A strong passion brews inside to do the impossible because I have faith that God can use me for the impossible. This faith is an illusion though.

It just an illusion of progress.

An illusion of closeness with Creator.

I mean really, how easy is it to believe that the Creator of the universe can move a mountain? That He can heal the sick? Maybe even faith that He can save some starving kids in Africa by making it rain a few inches more. It is easy to believe that an all-power, all-knowing God could do this. Pagans since the beginning of time have believed that their gods could do things of this sort. We as Christians are called to a harder type of faith though.

It is easy to believe that God can move mountains, but we are call to trust God with our molehills. This is where the illusion breaks. Where the illusion shatters and cause one to question how faithful they really are.

Once I realized that I am hard pressed trusting God with the little things, I realized how faithless I am. I have a hard time trusting God with the little things, giving Him controls of the small choices. It stems from pride. I know that I am incapable of doing big things on my own, but I often think that I can take on the little stuff on my own. I tell God thanks for helping on the big stuff, then tell Him to step back and let me work on my own.

This is my current struggle. Laying down my pride and giving God control of the molehills. I have to remember that I cannot do anything on my own, cause when I try I fail big time. All I can do is fall on my face and proclaim "Worthy Worthy are You and I being so unworthy need your help"

This is true faith laying everything down at the feet of God and trusting Him to move your mountains and molehills. We must, I must give Him my all and hate my life. Faith is trusting God in every little aspect of your life; even if it's choosing meat over vegetables.

"By faith Abel offered to God a better sacrifice than Cain did." Hebrews 11:4

It's all in the little things..

Can you feel it in the wind. Taste it in the rain. Maybe even see it in the mirror? I can. It's adventure. It's something new. It is just waiting for me to let go and jump, so it can grab me and send me soaring with the eagles. Every bone in my body aches for it. My heart longs it. I need adventure. I believe we all need adventure. We all need to dream of an adventure, for adventure is our calling. Its closer than we think, for we forget that our days are filled with them.

A problem I find is that I believe others to live bigger adventures. Tells of sleeping with lions in Africa. Feeding the hungry in Brazil. Fixing the broken in China. Loving the homeless in San Fransisco. Adventure in is easiest of forms. Something new, novel, and unheard of. Some risk. Some reward. Even thinking of it stirs up quite the passion in my gut. Imagery fills my mind. It is as if I am merely five years of age, I still dream of an adventure. I still wish to be able to walk out the back door and be in a new land of old knights and even older dragons. Oh the adventures that call my name, but I seem unable to answer its call like those around me.

I find myself getting in thought processes like this; I wish of grandeur, but eventually just end up sad and depressed because my dreams never come true. Something I have been realizing though is that adventure is everywhere. I should think it an adventure to be able to arise from bed, as some can not even get that far. To go to college, for half the world dreams of going to college. I should consider it a privilege to be in deep, new discussions on Wednesday nights with young men who are interested in God. Oh the adventure it is to be in a community of friends every Friday night, reading God's divine Word. The daily adventure of getting to know my other half, my love, and the one God has made for me, should destroy me. The hourly adventure of learning of, talking with, and coming close to Jesus the One who saved me; such an adventure should set my heart on fire and my soul in tears. All of these things should be my focus, for they are my day to day adventures. The things God has blessed me with currently.

But I forget. I lack faith in God to give me adventures in my day to day life. It is something I wish to fix. I want every boring minute of every day to be an adventure in God. I want getting out of bed to be so risky, I think about it for a second before jumping out. I want to take pride in the little adventures, and stop being depressed that I am not living someone else's life. For adventure is all around you and me. We must merely grab the horns and ride it like it's are last chance to live. Let's stop wasting the little things, for they are what make the big things.

“Life is either a great adventure or nothing.”~Helen Keller